somewhere between silence & screaming

1)  It’s stupid to be jealous of other people’s gifts.  God’s gifted me in specific areas for His reasons.  I need to focus on that.  Remaining content in that area has been a struggle, but certainly not one that can’t be overcome.  

2)  God wouldn’t have me pour my heart into something just to get it broken.  There is a time for everything, and even relationships can be seasonal (Disclaimer:  This is not even remotely related to my marriage whatsoever.  That is one relationship that is NOT seasonal is the commitment aspect.)   I’ve mentioned on here before how I’ve had a tendency to get really close to people for 1 to 2 years and then drift apart.  I tend to focus way too much on that cycle and get down about it.  I’ve been blessed enough to know my closest friends for over a decade.  Even though we live in different parts of the country, their friendship, accountability and encouragement are such a blessing.  They have been such a comfort to me through hard times, and I know the Spirit comforts us so that we can comfort others.  Sometimes, I still feel a little disconnected and lonely, but I need to just get over it.  Emotions do not represent fact, and most of my disconnected feelings stem from my own introvertedness & dwelling on the negative.   I know God has put me in and out of others’ lives, for whatever period of time, for a reason, and I need to just trust in that.

3)  Marriage is incredible.  Seeking God together in a marriage is the biggest blessing in my life thus far.  My husband is such a kind, motivating, strong spiritual leader, and words can’t express how grateful I am.  I trust our marriage will never fail - not because we have anything to bring to the table, but because our marriage is based on seeking the One who will never fail us.  It has freed us from expectations and pressure to make the other person happy.  We know true peace, joy and contentment are found in Christ.

4)  I am so grateful for Real Life.  I really think this Church, the way its challenged us to grow in our faith, the people there, and the things we’re doing in this city are the reason God wanted Josh & I to move to Florida.  I had no idea why He brought us here, and now I do.  And I’m so thankful.  He truly is faithful and knows what He’s doing.   He is love.