somewhere between silence & screaming

I have officially started using my Google calendar.  There is just way too much going on in life for me to keep straight anymore. 

Which is exactly why I haven’t blogged in a while.  I’ve tried to be a consistent personal blogger in the past, but ultimately decided only to blog when I felt I had something to say that was worth blogging about rather than trying to force it.  There have been plenty of occasions lately where I’ve wanted to blog, or have even started writing one, but I have been absolutely out of any time to finish writing.

So a quick update on us:  We’re continually crazy blessed and trying to figure out the best ways to use those blessings to bless others.  (I feel like I just seriously overused the word or variations of the word blessed.)   I’m struggling infinitely right now with patience and trying to let go of my timelines and trust in God’s. 

Let’s see, what else.  We went to a Greek restaurant for Valentine’s day.  It was just okay.  The food was a bit of a letdown.  Then we went to Texas de Brazil for Josh’s birthday, which was excellent.  I get really excited about the huge salad bar and Josh gets excited about the unlimited amount of steak, so that worked out well.  We also had the bananas foster pie, which was delicious.

We’ve been looking at cars which has been fun.  I’m not a big fan of 2 doors or sitting low, so we’re looking for a mid-sized SUV for me.  We’re not even remotely in a rush to buy one, but we’re trying to figure out what I like so that if we see a good deal, we can jump on it.

We’re also getting excited and doing the last bit of planning for our upcoming trip to Germany.  We’re also only a couple months away from our 3rd anniversary, which feels incredibly weird to me.

I wish I had humorous stories, or touching stories… or any kind of stories to tell really, but I don’t.  There’s a lot that’s been going on internally (as in pensively, not medically - although another reason for the lack of blogging is the 6 weeks straight of illness that happened at our house) for me lately, but I’m not quite sure how to articulate all of it yet, or if I even want to. 

I still feel overwhelmed and humbled by my life right now.  I feel like I’ve been given so much, and I know that all of those blessings come with responsibility.  I don’t want to waste any of the opportunities I’m given to glorify God & to love the people he loves. 

I’m still shaking my head over the fact we will have been married 3 years this year.  I know that was like 3 paragraphs ago, but I just can’t wrap my head around it.  I am so crazy in love with Josh.  I love watching what God’s doing in his life.  Sometimes I don’t even know that he even recognizes that parts of his heart have changed.  I’ve typed a different sentence about that 3 times now, but I can’t find a way to explain what I mean without it sounding like there was something about him I was unhappy with in the first place.  When you find the love of your life and you’re head over heels, crazy, passionately, infinitely in love with them just the way they are when you meet them, flaws and all, and you know you’d love them that much even if they stayed just the way they are everyday for the rest of your lives… and then they get even better… and better and better…, it just blows your mind.  Does that even make sense?  He is SO kind and generous and patient and loving.  I trust him completely in ways I didn’t even know I could trust someone.  But enough gushing… don’t want him to read this & get a big head :P

Okay, I’m officially out of time for blogging now.